"Fun-Raising"

I'm going to Kentucky.

I can't believe I'm leaving so soon. Actually, it is all very overwhelming to me and hard to take in how far I've come. It seems so surreal.... I look at where I was back in March (when I didn't have a clue about the next step in life) and then I look at where I am now, and I am astonished. All I can say is "The Lord has done great things for me, and I am filled with joy!"

I have this theory that support raising for a ministry is like giving birth, although I have never experienced having a baby (yet -- ha!). You work hard and prepare for months, and then you get to the climax and push until all your strength is gone, and then you seem to find more strength from some supernatural source to keep persevering.

And in the middle of it, you think, "I am never ever doing this again... I just want to give up..." And then your baby's here, and it's a joyous moment! And all the work seems so worth it. But then it hits you... "Oh shoot... I actually have to raise this child. I am responsible for it now."

So with me, I'm like "Wow, God has provided for me and blessed me!" and then I'm like, "Oh boy, He must have a LOT of confidence in me to give me so much responsibility... peoples' souls are hanging in the balance now.... WOW. Where do I even begin?" Talk about overwhelming.

So, that's just a little taste of what I'm feeling. :)